While I have talked about detox a bit and mentioned the “adjustment” of moving to posters, maybe I have been remiss in my remarks.  For example, I have had no adverse effects from posters at all.  True, I started out on 10 large ones and went to a box and then two boxes and now five over about 4 months.. and no adverse effects at all.  By the way, we recommend that you start out with Bed Sets [multiples of boxes] and punch through what ever shift is presented.

What I do notice though, is little bubbles occassionally pop to the surface for which I can identify that distinctive “pop”!  It is no more than that.  And usually a face or personality associated with the popping inflection.  For example, several days ago, a bubble came to the surface of my consciousness to pop and remind me of someone I worked with in late 1970’s and very early 1980’s.  His name was Tom.  No real charge on this person, though he seemed to be the least favorite of the three partners I worked with.  He just came to the surface and it brought up a few other thoughts including this gentleman’s daughter who I knew casually.  Again, no special “for or against” though I would have to say I was reminded of good times in the long distant past.  And, this caused me a willingness to reach out way into “yesteryear” and attempt be in touch and say hello.  Just out of a simple gratitude of time gone by and a remembrance of someone(s) whose life’s we each touched.  And, surely Tom was an influence on me of some sort. 

The next day or so I sent an email to a very good friend who knew both of these people and it turned out he was in touch with Tom that same morning and would see him the next day and forward my acknowledgment and hello.  I also asked about the daughter and heard she had adopted daughters and was doing fine..

In the end, I was in touch with someone from my long distant past.  A relationship that was renewed (sans contact) at the state and perspective I now live my life, i.e., unconditional, in a state of nonresistance and grace, and a gratitude for life.  Seems to me that that old memory surfaced to have its connection refurbished and polished a bit.  Now Tom and his daughter play a part in my life that is uplifting and free of any old shortcomings my history with him may have carried.  What there was to heal, I  have no idea, but something has healed and this memory I now carry is carried as gratitude and satisfaction.

It has been going like this for me.  Bubbles of the past rising to the surface of my consciousness to be seen once again in their perfection and order that is now available to me to sink back as the history of my past.  Looks like I am revamping my history and releasing it to become emptier and emptier for which more gratitude and more acceptance show up. 

The opportunity to see the past in a new light is a very powerful experience – otherwise, why would I be writing about it.  Thanks Tom for coming back into my life, back after so many years.  I hear you are 83 now and active as can be. 

No telling what it might mean and no need to know.  But I bet it turns out we are all more similar than we are different..

And, I bet this is what I learned and how I will remember Tom.

Namasté

J.Hamilton